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and everyone will ignore this, of course, that's expected from you babies, listen, i know at least most of you are under the age of 13.

i absolutely hate this place... i want to leave, but i know my friends are on school computers and can't go to other sites like deviantart... recently, my tablet kind of broke, and now the keyboard on it isn't working so i can't go to my sites, i bet my friends there kind of miss me... deviantart is also blocked on my school computer, making me not able to do anything there

i also seem to have been causing drama all the time, but i've been just speaking my mind, you all do realize i'm being mean for reasons? also, it doesn't seem anyone care about how I FEEL, it's all about alex, or uni, or geevee. i cannot stand the disrespect, you all would be NOTHING without me, but you all ignore. i hate it so much... do you all realize what i had to sacrifice for you? i had to make stuff, beg, and ask for art for all of you... i've spent almost a quarter of my deviantart money for you all, and what do i get? what does the artist get? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! NOT EVEN A THANKS MOST OF THE TIME!!

i would appreciate it if all of you would think of me, or my friends, who had to make that stuff for you, all i get for the time i waste making you all stuff is either a "lol nice" or "cool", it pisses me the f**k off, also, i've had alot of people say they'd do something for me, but NO ONE ACTUALLY GAVE ME ANYTHING!! i'm looking at you, christian "fox", i love you buddy, BUT WHERE WAS YOUR PART IN OUT ART TRADE??? IT'S BEEN MONTHS NOW!! AUGGHHHHHHHHHH

i hate you ALL, i've tried to better myself, but maybe it's better to be toxic than to be nice for the most part.

Im sorry you feel that way

ah, and that too. "i'm sorry you feel that way" is also f**king annoying and it shows you have no respect to me. no "sorry" can make up to ANY of that.

i don´t know what to do ok

neither do i, but i would like some respect for the love of god

I think Alex really is, you can at least not assume bad things about people, like they don't mean what they say, some people just never have much to say even if they want too, unlike me, he wanted to apologize for it and I'm the one that told him about it too. He never meant to make you feel any less and neither did anyone else.
Again I'm sorry you've felt that way, just because you never see us does!'t mean we don't respect or care about you, of he really didn't have any respect or care he wouldn't have even showed up.

but just a "sorry you feel that way" does not make me happy, or even feel better.

Yea, I get it feels empty, but I really just said the same thing with more words and reassurance. Just try to give the benefit of doubt and assume that behind that we really are concerned for you, accepting even simple apologies might not always make you happy but its a step and makes it more easy for them to care if they aren't pushed away for saying atleast something, it might sound empty but few words can speak a lot.
He still wants you to feel better, its the thought that counts not the exact words, I think you might feel better if you focus on them just being there for you, even if they don't have much to show for it.

maybe i'd feel better if the almost 10 people who viewed this, would actually do it https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/831939188/

Hate leads to pain, pain leads to darkness. I understand the difficulty you feel. I've felt like that many times. But just know one thing. No matter how bad things may be, you have your friends in the real world. You have your family. They'll help you. I know this sounds annoying and you think I have no respect for you, but I do. You are an amazing person, and, funnily enough, I've felt more welcome here than anywhere else. That's all thanks to you. You made this steam, you helped me, you helped them, you helped SO many people. So don't forget that. Even though you may be having a hard time, you've brightened someone else's day. I know I don't know you that well, but I know that you are incredible and you will do great things in the future. Don't forget. You have your online (Lol) friends to help you, and we can help you through this. But as I finish, let me tell you one of my favorite quotes. "If you are depressed, you live in the past, if you are anxious, you live in the future, if you are at peace, you live in the present." So stay focused on the present, and there you will find peace.

thank you... although, irl i literally have no friends other than cats

Haha, I think I only had 2 or 3 IRL friends, one I don't even get to see anymore.
Besides the point though your welcome, I'll try to make sure others here appreciate you a bit more, and I know I could have been doing the same. Your welcome.

Also, can you tell me why I feel like I'm going to be some sort of philosopher when I grow up?

I have no idea really, but that sound pretty cool, maybe that's what you wanna do.

Thanks, it's what I do I guess.

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I'm sorry you feel this way Sylc, I get this can all be stressful for you, it's not true that giving up on being better is the right option, I'm sorry that nobody here has given you the validation you want for all you've done to bring us together, but it's good that you said something about it.
I will try to appreciate what you do a bit more and maybe everyone else will too.

I want to say thanks, this stream is kinda a big part of me online and even though everyone else plays a big part in it, you were the start.

And again you shouldn't stop trying to improve yourself, I for one have noticed you become nicer then you were before, you have made progress and it would be a shame to go back on it, I wish it didn't take me this long to see a call for help from you but,

Thank you Sylc!

^^''
i mostly made this stream because the stream based off of it (sylceon's death realm) could have been better, and it is, many people have joined, maybe because they liked the idea of many other people's ocs being in one group, while you most art annoying.. you all have been great. for the most part

(Ijust wrote another whole paragraph then changed pages T-T)

Thank you, i kinda like the concept too even though I used to think ES was more about the stores, but i'm glad this new stream turned out the better than the other one even if it isn't perfect, and sometimes I feel like nobody notices what I do, but I don't care about the recognition that much, to me its the other points of doing it that makes me proud, nobody means to make you feel less appreciated just because everyone pays more attention to them but at least I will try to show it more and hope other members will too.

yeah

i don't get it

Crap. Now this is why my memes have no upvotes.

People don't have a sense of humor.

i just don't get it lol

what do you mean
my sense of humor is just offensive stuff

Lol.

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