So were we talking about life trauma 2 hours ago? I'll join that, I guess; I was verbally and physically abused by my dad, lost 2 cats(1 died of unknown reasons, I was 8 at the time and my sister told me he had ants crawling all over him, and the other died in my arms because they wouldn't eat or drink), and I lost another cat to move houses; So we couldn't have pets until 2 years ago. I'm sometimes guilt tripped by my mom, and I've attempted suicide 3 times, attempted self harm once, and I've ended up where I am.