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Context: Toof looked kind of down, and I tried to cheer her up, but... I...

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WHO AM I KIDDING?! I'm a stupid as hell teen who can't even socialize to save her life! I can't even ask for an extra pack of ketchup without freezing like a deer in the headlights!

That's the part of being introverted :D
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Okay, I'm not helping..

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..sorry

..I should't've left..
I should've just stayed..
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why do I do this to myself..
why do I torture myself..
why do I hurt myself..
why..
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something I'll never know..

You.. ..maybe what you thought back then was probably right..
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I kinda made your life worse ig.. with all the shit that happens.. you staying here..
life..
..never fair for anyone.. and I mean anyone..
Life is just life..

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It's just the way everything is..
I left out of my own selfish sadness instead of making sure that you're ok.
And I do this 2 hours later...
God I can't control myself..
I try and forget all of the bad things.. but.. nothing ever works out..
I still remember some abuse from my father..
I still remember his seizures..
I still remember some of the bad things I've done..
I still.. remember...
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I'm just making this worse..

No.. it's not your fault. I thought I made things worse and I worried you.. I'm sorry frien.

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I left you though...

I know, but I kind of started it..

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I googled it..
I "pestered" you..
I put something in the search bar..
You left..
I went off..

(Hug)

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