last night i edited a wikipedia article and told my crush about it and the two of us freaked out and laughed about it for like 4 hours
so 1. i keep falling in love even more with my crush the more i talk to him, and he's still figuring out how he feels
2. i'm actually able to genuinely smile for the first time in a while thanks to last night, like i'm actually happy, i didnt wake up with a panic attack for the first time in 3 years this morning