So yeah, I'm feeling better emotionally but my health is going way down and School has taken the next step and is sending someon

Well my mom just went off at me(not yelling) mentioning all the shit.
Now I want to just leave this site forever. THIS F**KING SITE HAS ONLY CAUSED ME TROUBLE.

..I have 2 choices right now.
Delete my account forever.
or
Only talk to you guys on the weekends for me and the holidays.
..
and the unforgiving 3rd I never wanted to say
Kill myself because I'm so f*cking done with it all.

Weekends and holidays is fine
That's the best option right now from my pov..

Then why do I have to worry about myself yet?

My Lead Time in school has taught me some things..those things I would like all of you guys to follow too.

ok

So you helping yourself is job one.
Do what you can to keep your physical and mental being stable :3

I need Lunnah to appear more often

MY LIFE HAS BEEN A SHITHOLE SINCE 2020, BUT THAT WAS WHEN IT WASN'T AS BAD. IT WAS ONLY AFTER THE FACT I HAD TO PICK LOCK THE DOOR TO GET IN IS WHEN IT WENT DOWNHILL FROM THERE.
EARLIER IT WAS JUST A MINOR SHITHOLE.

*hug* ..

......

I know I'm not helping much, but it was worth a try ;^;

..

..okay, here me out

Life won't go the way you want it, and it hurts.
But there is ways to make it better for yourself and other people. Worrying about yourself is job one, focusing on what needs to be done for your physical and mental being. Second is about others and the people you care for (family, friends, etc.). Third is the environment and how you want to treat others outside of home, school, etc.

Is it wrong that I want you guys to be ok?

No, not at all!

I can't lose one of my lights, neither can M, Cherry, or anyone else
You matter too much..
And I say you do what will help you best health wise

This is what I mean

You need me
I need you.
BUT THE FACT YA'LL NEED ME IS CRUSHING MY MENTAL HEALTH AND HEALTH IN GENERAL

Hey, I don't mind you doing what you think is best
I'm doing what I can right now so I don't lose my mind either

..
I lost my life at the age of 8 because that's when I started impersonating and making the voices.
Then those got outta hand as the years went on
Then you guys were added onto the "let's help but also crush mental health and her health in general" boat.

:<

D o e s n ' t h e l p w h e n I o n l y v e n t t o C h e r r y a b o u t m i n o r t h i n g s .

;^;

But NEVER have I done a vent like this.(Venting in 1 go without any interuptions from rp stuff)

*sigh..*
Life is a sh!thole.

*hug*

Yes..
Sad but true

sad..
But I say you do so, I want you to have a good life
And doing that may help increase that

Yeahhhh but I don't want the shitheads to keep reminding me the dumb thing I said just to tease me and/or upset or/and piss me off.

But then again, the teachers there are really nice.
You guys are helping, but you guys are also kinda destroying my health...

Then I say focus on your health standards

Then my emotional state will drop fast.

I know..
But you gotta do what you don't want sometimes..

Yeah, but it f*cking sucks

And continuing the title:
They're sending someone out to see why I'm not going to school. AND I CAN'T BRING YOU GUYS INTO IT.

B U T , IF I DON'T THEY WON'T GET ANSWERS, AND IF I DO, I'LL PROBABLY GET INTO A SHIT TON OF TROUBLE AND PROBABLY GROUNDED BECAUSE I CAN'T TELL THE F**KING TRUTH TO MY OWN MOTHER.

I'm not exactly the best at being like this but
And I know I'm kinda late on answering

I just want to say is, Just, Don't think about killing yourself, we all have so many plans for the future
I'm pretty sure the only reason you try to keep going is you want to meet M, Bun and Cherry
Even nighty and Dream

I understand that, but, I just want you to decide on what you think is okay

Schools shit. But remember, You don't even get a FUTURE if you don't go to it.
Not the encouraging words to read, am I right?
Exactly

You are the on that Can MAKE the decision of whether what's good for you

Not your school or parent
Not an sibling or friend

You need to see the pros and cons
But at the same time, ignore the pros and cons and keep ONE Goal in mind

Delete, I won't mind, your choice

I don't like staying here as much as you do, but I stay here because, like I said, it keeps me entertained because I don't have anyone

You can relate to the sentence

Just click out what the kids have to say,
BEG for anything that you need that is important to you, dobt take no as an answer from them

Just, yknow, I might get a chance to fly to someone "special" even before I'm 18, it would be sad to not see them