Thank you for apologizing, but what is necessary is that you take the measures to make sure that doesn’t happen again
You were the one handed the most during your moment of rage
A source tells me you bottled up too much anger; find an outlet to rid of the anger
Seek a professional therapist if you can because I believe one can help you
I don’t mean to be condescending when I say that; I have a psychotherapist myself
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