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^if you'd like to chat. I can give you the whole rundown, history, culture, context, almost anything related to the fandom you wish to know.
Either way I'll say that a lot of people are in the same boat, including those who are deeply ingrained in the fandom and who laid the very foundations of it, but for several reasons, their voices were shut out and still are.