my life

Sadly accurate. My oldest brother and I got degrees and settled down with our families. Our middle brother got a family, had drug problems, was in and out of jail and prison, got better, got worse drug problems, threatened his family, lost his family, lived on a farm for 3 years without ever talking to the family, and a few months ago killed himself.

im so so sorry

That's sad

Yeah I know "came here to laugh not to feel" I've just been thinking about it a lot lately, like more than when it happened for some reason. That might be because I had to plan the whole funeral since my parents were too upset to, or because we're just now getting the ashes back from his girlfriend he had the past couple years. Idk. Also it was just his 43rd birthday on the 17th. . . It's just weird. Sorry to "trauma dump" or whatever it's called. XD

I'm sorry for your loss

My days ruined now