now all I need to do is find said special person, which won't happen since I'm a screwup.

FINALLY SOMEONE SPEAKS THE TRUTH

i prefer becoming that special person. reflect your expectations to your own mindset and ideas :)

I've always been both the special person who helps other depressed people and the one who always wants to cry and feel sad

that special person for me is my best friend but hes also kinda experiencing what im also experiencing

That special person doesn't like me like i do to her

Bro same

i dont want a special person bc i dont like love and friends its weird and i would rather be alone

I always try to stay unsocilalized
So we might be similar

My special person never has time for me