I sincerely want to help you solve your gender-identity crisis, but unfortunately, I have literally next to no clue on how to exactly do that (I've never really delved into questioning the concept of gender personally) - the best that I can feasibly do is to offer my unending help, empathy, and support for you as a friend, but I really doubt it's gonna be enough to change anything. I'm really sorry, my non-binary avian friend, but I pretty much got nothing.
Now I feel bad :,(