Okkkkkkkkk
Well, I started self-harm for the first time and if I make a mistake or screw up, I uh.. you know. And I'm only 11 so...
And then... oho, with school, where do I begin? Well, I'm always trying to get good grades, but when I got REALLY good grades, like 12th-grade reading, my dad said he wanted me to switch schools. He said "why be going at the same speed as the rest of the dumbasses there?" and when I said I wanted to stay with my friends he started yelling at me, and let's just say that was a long night. Its a limbo between: be dumb and be a screw up, or be smart and have to move schools. Then, when I tried standing up for someone at school, my parents SOMEHOW found out, and that.. was quite the big argument. Also, I'm 90% sure that a few of my friends hate each other, ngl.
And with home... oh shit, well.. my brother is constantly being rude to me, embarrassing me, etc. My parents argue about EVERY LITTLE TINY THING AND IT DRIVES ME NUTS! The legit only thing that slightly cures it is music and the... other thing. My dad legit almost left, which (serves him right) got me a little nervous that they were getting divorced, and bad stuff would happen if ya know what I mean.
And with my friends, honestly, I dunno if I fit in anywhere. I don't know much about fnaf and then I don't know much about soccer. Two of my friends talk about fnaf all the time, and I never understand anything. It's like they're speaking a different language that you can't understand. And when I try to do good at soccer, I usually get called an "idiot" in the end or f**k up really bad during a game. I'm just never enough for anyone.
So, to sum it up.
1. My parents are on the edge of a divorce
2. My friends don't like each other
3. I'm never enough for anyone
4. I started doing self-harm
5. When I do something good, it backfires
6. I try to be nice, but my parents don't approve
7. My brother hates me
8. I don't know who I can trust
9. I'm starting to think my friends hate me
10. I'm dumb and bad at soccer
11. I can never fit in
SO yeah. It f**king sucks. Don't tell anyone, but that's inevitable because everyone can see this. RIP me.
