Unfortunately, there really is such a sign over his head 😔 In all honesty, he's probably going to be one of the more difficult family members to get to, as he's never been all too fond over the LGBTQ+ Community (I've seen his reactions to them on TV and, to say the least, his reactions were always of pure disgust). As for what my grandma told me, I agree. It really was heart-breaking to hear those things, especially after she kept telling me that she loved and accepted me. I mean, you simply can't *truly* accept somebody if you keep going against your own word. After all, I'm simply not gonna magically change back into a female once I become an adult. It just doesn't work that way, as I *know* who I really am, and am happy with who I am. And just like you said, "at what age am I old enough to know I'm uncomfortable in my body?" I'd say at any age. Besides, our bodies are something we simply can't escape from (fortunately, we *can* change them), and so knowing when you're uncomfortable in your own is quite easy to discover.
As for the attraction thing, I get that. I mean, I tried out being bisexual before, but it just never worked out. I've always struggled to get along with females, as I've been basically traumatized by them as a child, which can make it rather difficult to form deep and meaningful bonds with them. Hence, I simply find myself being attracted to males, and I don't see anything wrong with that whatsoever :\ Additionally, I simply fail to see how my grandma linked gay to such stuff almost instantly. Like, who even starts a conversation like that??? 🤦♂️ However, I did manage to talk to her about the gay thing, too, and I think I was able to make her more accepting of that as well? I mean, I just told her, "I don't see anything wrong with it, as just knowing somebody with a sexuality other than straight can, y'know... spice life up a little. After all, it's nice to learn from other people's points of views and whatnot. Makes it easier to understand other people." I think that might have gotten through to her, as she was like, "You got me there-"
Nonetheless, thank you for all the support you have provided to me (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) You've definitely been a huge, if not the biggest, help along my journey. Though it's been difficult, I'm really hoping that coming out to my grandparents was the right thing to do, just so that I can maybe have better mental health and a more comfortable life in my own home and family, you know?
Thanks, friend <3