I'm sorry but I don't think I can in the crusader stream anymore.
I've since lost my belief in god. I've been doing my best to please "him" but he's still taken so much from me. The crusader stream used to be actual "crusader" stuff (depends on your definition of crusader stuff), now it's only stuff like "wow ur great!" "someone said your bad? we can't have that". it's not that I don't appreciate that but it's become repetitive. I'm sorry but I can't stay.