I'm full of opinions and shit none of my friends will like, only reason I have about 4 friends (and counting down) is because I have to hide my real opinions and make lies to have friends, there's no one on this planet who has been through what I have been through or similar to me, the only people who are similar walk away for some reason. Like my friend, I liked her, I talked to her for her to give me advice, and last night she heard something she didn't like and wrote a whole story and the final words were "im blocking you" and then "f**k you" and now im down to 3 or 4 close friends, I sit alone at school, the only person who sat with me was my crush, and she's goth as hell and has issues like me but I pissed her off somehow and now she doesn't even talk or look at me, she goes away from me in the cafeteria, and I can't make any friends, everything going on feeds my anger and all I want to do is go insane in hope to get rid of this mental and physical hell that this life is to me, I just dealt with my parents divorce, fights every day, no friends anymore, covid, my crush is pissed, my friend blocked me, my parents don't trust me, I can't have any responsibility because I f**k it up, no one likes me, all I want is a car in my garage that I bought to work on and build a race car out of, but thats gonna be a long time from now.
I've come to the conclusion life hates me.
