You sound just like that idiot, Clark, from the movie "Good Will Hunting" who pretends to possess independent intellectual thought all the while regurgitating information from something he's recently read to sound far more informed and educated than he actually is. In his case, however, he actually did attend university and chose to use whatever knowledge he gained therein as a means to manipulate others for his own benefit. In your case, however, I suspect you didn't but are attempting to use the exact same tactics for the same purpose.