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Cya man

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Cya, stay safe

How about I don't "stay safe"

If you wanna no longer give a damn about your friends or family. Then yeah go ahead, don't stay safe.

And I swear to f**king God if you hit me with that "My family doesn't care about me" shit.

Listen, welcome to the real damn world, shits gonna hit the fan, things will definitely not go your way. You don't need to act edgy and suicidal every damn second of your life, because if you opened your damn eyes you can see you could go on and have a life out there, that people will care for you because of who you are, and not because of what you've been through.

So if you don't give a damn about anyone, not even yourself. Then yeah don't stay safe, otherwise, maybe you should

Pfft. Friendship. What a damn joke. Friendship is an overterm used solely for manipulation. Once the "FrIeNd" is done with you being their doll, they leave you in the dirt.

I never even mentioned my family in my comment before. But since you seem to think my family gives an honest shit about me, go on. Give it your best shot to convince me that they do. Because a real LOVING family won't tell their kids to die or that they're going to kill them. And they won't ABANDON THEM AND LEAVE THEM WITH A PEDOPHILE.

And I dont act "edgy" and suicidal every mcf**king second of my time. I'm the one here who tries to help everyone everywhere out there while trying to balance my own problems on top of all of it. Do you think it's easy?

And why should I bother giving a damn about people who dont give a damn about me. That's some bullshit I don't wanna have to deal with.

You must have a taste in some wrong friends. Yeah most will f**king leave you when you're down, but some will stay. Stick with what you got in this life, if they do leave so be it.

Yeah yeah parents may not f**king want you etc
Spire, you do know you're talking to me right? I've been basically there most times you'd bitch about your family and talk about how godawful they are to you. But c'mon like at least they bother to f**king raise you, albeit shit, but they bother. Also the pedophilia part, just why the f**k haven't you taken legal action yet? Like that seems like the easiest step to take after that

Actually yes I do know how you feel, yes I do know it's hard as shit trying to help everyone while you're bottling your damn problems up. See you can't help anyone if you can't help yourself, because if you can't help even yourself then how the f**k would you help others to your fullest? If you're able to be on this site as often as you normally are, then why the hell not take some time to just think about your problems and shit and stop bottling your emotions.

If you wanna be alone and narrow minded enough to have the mentality of: "No one cares about me, so why should I care about anyone else" and own it as your own. Then so be it, drown in your own self created misery.
But if you want friends that give a damn about you, surround yourself in those you trust, on this site or in real f**king life. If they crack and leave you, so they obviously weren't the right one to lean on. Don't spend your time being upset that they left you, thinking that they were a true friend, cause et voila: they weren't. Just get up, see them in their true colors now and do the same thing of finding people who you can be close friends with and they could be true friends. And if they aren't true friends like the previous ones, then repeat the damn process all over again. I know it gets rough and shit goes sideways a lot of the time, but if you can't make it today, then you can always make it tomorrow, if you can't, then you always got the day after tomorrow, and so forth.

I know my "taste" in friends is God awful, but like, I don't f**king lick them to try and see what colors they are on the inside of them. 99.9999999999% out of all of the friends I have leave. Most of them dont even have a proper reason, they just go. And the ones I got, I guess like you, I'm not sure are all too trustworthy. Only got one friend who genuinely gives a shit about me in the real world. The only reason I can see that you havent left me in the dirt too is because despite telling you a lot you still don't f**king know the real me. Nobody here does.

So it goes something kinda like this:
"If you speak out about things that happen to you, you'll be punished" (they don't know I use the internet aside from like youtube and generic shit) and "we dont want anything more to deal with [whatever the f child protective services is actually called]." And its not like I have anywhere else to go if I get out of there. And lord knows I'm not going into one of those god awful foster homes which are usually even worse than whatever tf I'm living in now. To be honest, living on my own would be fine if some bitches would actually hire an inexperienced anti-social 14 year old bitch like me but no jobs dont do that you gotta be at least 18 and have some damn social skills to actually get a job. Their "raising me" was just giving me food water and a house. Clothes? Forget her. Phone? Dont know her. Guardians who do the bare minimum (unless they are actually making an attempt) do not deserve to be in possession of children. It's common sense. But apparently common sense is not so common.

And see, I can't exactly show my true emotions here. And I don't have the brain capacity to think everything properly through. I may not be able to help people to the fullest, but I seem to do better than those who dont do anything and those shitty irl "therapist" drug dealers. Helping myself is useless. Why bother? Theres no way for me to genuinely be helped unless I say everything and then I'd be called (or thought of as) an attention seeker left and f**king right. Shiyu and Flamy are two great examples of that. They tend not to say much because I try to keep everything hidden now.

And I didn't create my misery, those who surrounded me did. I just keep in inside until I've had enough. Takes form not in words but actions. Be it my random blind rage, or crying for hours. I wonder where I go wrong finding friends and look at this. Pathetic, but I still try my best. Some best loners.

Y'know I'm too lazy to make another paragraph so let me just summarize a point imma try to make:

Well that's your life, I'm just saying what I think you should do.
That's right, I only know pieces of you, and I work with it. I may not know the real you, maybe the act you play that everything is alright is just a facade. But the pieces I got makes me stick around, if you show your true colors. I might stay, I might go: as you said, I don't know the real you. And I can't make a clear decision till I do.

Y'know someone people don't have a steady supply of food, water and/or shelter. Consider yourself lucky, yeah your guardians are negligent, but I'm trying to remain optimistic here so I'll say this: At least you're learning how to fend for yourself. And I can't change the law for you to get yourself a job at your age.

I didn't say you had to show your emotions out to others, sometimes it's best for you to just yell at yourself alone.

Lemme take a look at this from a technical standpoint:
Say everyone is to be in your position right where you are right now, the entitled, the rich, the poor, the homeless, Joe who lives down the street, etc...
Would they all have the same reaction to the conditions as you would?
I bet you'd get 99.9 percent of people acting the same way as you'd do, but the people who were in a worse situation than you right now, might be happy.
Misery is not a constant among all human beings, some scenarios may cause one misery, while it may provoke joy in another. But, it ain't your fault you have emotions

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Cya, man.

I care! T_T