WHY REPENTENCE AND FAITH COMES BEFORE OBEDIENCE.
The reason why it must be this way, rather than immediately doing good thing for Him is because we are sinners before a holy and just God. We sin, because it is in our nature to sin, which is passed down from the very beginning since Adam's sin (Romans 5:12-16).
For example, we need no training and conditioning to lie, steal, hate (which is an act of murder - Matthew 5:21-22), commit adultery (Matthew 5:27-28), blaspheme God (Exodus 20:7), covet (Exodus 20:17), etc. We do them, effortlessly.
So any good that you do for Him would only be to Him, "Filthy Rags" (Isaiah 64:6).
But in giving your life to Him, He fundamentally changes you from the inside, out. Recall, that I've said we have a nature to sin; by giving our lives to Him, we acquire a new nature (2 Corinthians 5:17)
HOW TO STRENGTHEN YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM
1. It starts with prayer and trust that God will lead you change; then, obeying his every commandment
2. Then, study and meditate on the commandments of God.
3, Obeying the commandments of God)
I'll return later.