all this artwork makes me realize how much of a dissapointment I am

Why-

my family gets married at 18 or 19 yet I'm 24 and I haen't talked to people in 1 year...

*hug*
People take their own time. Some of us don't need relationships as well.

I'm only doing it for my family, hell my family members (well all of the males) went out to wars, and I'm fat sitting in my damn chair

(just to be clear, going to war does not prove you're strong or something.)

its not that, I'm just a dissapointment to my entire family will

okay but do you even have a reason to not disappoint them? like things change and if they were like this for years and years don't you wanna be different? especially if you don't want to do the thing they want you to do? like honestly it seems greedy of them to force you to do something for "honor"

My family is one of the greatest in delaware, it would be like mooning the president of the usa

I would gladly shoot the president of the usa in the face, considering i hate this country.

But like you should be your own person, screw what people want you to be. Are you going to waste your life just becoming what other people want you to be instead of what you want to be?

I don't care if what you want to be is a dude sitting in his basement going on a less toxic reddit its still what you want to be. and you deserve to be what you want to be.

well then go live in f**king india were you can die alone in a hospital

And maybe I will, maybe I won't. Only time can tell.

I wanna be like them because they want me to be one of them, I feel guilty when I don't

Cmon, beany. We're all different, you know this. Something big will happen, bound to knock you off your feet.

I doubt that

Please believe me

this is more than some sissy veitnam war meeting shit, this is about my family will. What should be done and what shall not be done.

Nngh..

I was born in a very formal family, had to speak and act a certain way all the time. And just because I was born in that family I can't be myself, go***mn blasphemy

We are in the same boat except I'm still in the damn household.
God, try to suck up some of your own self hatred and start doing something.
Yesterday i declared i was done being a suicidal thot who couldn't take care of himself. And I'm actually following through. Procrastination is a bitch. Take it from one of the biggest. But it's essential for motivation. Now, stop being complaining about it and become your own person.

My great grandfather killed three nazis and built 5 houses and raised a family, married at 20 somn
my grandfather, 50 years marrige, 50 years service to the vfw and had a house that he took great care of
My father, was a banker for 40 years, had a wife me and my brother. He also fought in a war like the rest of them
and me, I built a shitty house, and I cry sometimes.

So you're different. Who gives a f**k?
My dad is a 9th generation farmer who is a hard conservative, christian, homophobe, and more.
And I'm growing up to become a pilot, transition, marry multiple people, and more.
Yet I'm still dragged into farm work and talked to about my "future of farming" because yes, my dad desperately wants me to be a farmer for whatever reason.

Regarding the first two/three paragraphs; Now that is subversive defiance at its finest and I love it.

Yay-

he wants you to be a farmer cause its some hard work out there, and he wants to keep the family tradition alive

Then go out there and kill some austrian-following germans.

sure, I hate german people and uhm astualian people!

Australien.
Ok.
And I'm german lmao

whatcha gonna do? Nein me? Lmfao

This is why I hate the majority of Americans

b r u h

Awww, I love this so much. These two are amazing together. :3