:)

I sit in my chair crying silent tears,
Flinching.
Everytime she speaks, I wince.
Again, I am braced for it.

Yet I do not see it coming,
Flying.
I am shoved from my chair, which clatters to the floor.
Pain flies through my body, which shakes in fear.

I lie there on the cold kitchen tiles,
Hurting.
I know I will have a bruise later.
It will hurt to move, as if my bones are slowly breaking.

I know this because it is all familiar,
Remembering.
I expect her to kick me, maybe throw me, as she has before,
It will hurt in the moment, but it doesn't matter.

She does not, just yells harsh words at me, verbal abuse instead.
Fearing.
As she leaves, I sit up, my arm sore from my landing,
I am too afraid to stand, but I finally do, sobbing quietly.

And eventually, it will happen all over again.

*Beeg Huggos* I´m sorry...

I'm fine just like always

I'm used to it

you shouldn´t be, that is just...

No, no it's fine not as bad as the time when I threw the boot at her- that was the only time I tried to defend myself, and one of the worst....I didn't ever try to fight back again :)

STOP PUTTING SMILEY FACES, IT IS NOT A HAPPY THING!

I'm saying it doesn't seem like anyone cares cus I'm stuck in it

I know you care Logan I'm sorry

:) Well it doesn't even matter because nobody really cares *shrug*

EXCUSE ME?!

Well nobody's done anything about it

This shit been going on since like 5th grade

Well I´m sorry I haven´t known you since 5th grade!

*ahem*

BISH- WE ARE ALL EHAR FOR YOU-

>:3

*smirk* you threw a boot at ur mom

*holding back laughs*

What

*blushes*

Bye

It's just that NOBODY did anything when it was at it's worst

I mean lately it hasn't been a problem at all, not since mid 8th grade, but it appears it might start again and in 7th grade it was real bad and I told Luna and Ari everything and once, the time I threw the shoe, I told my choir teacher, and she didn't ever do anything, so it just feels like nobody cares and I don't got broken bones or nothing that serious, so is it even abuse i don't F**KING KNOW

Well, it FEELS like nobody cares...

Well nobody does

Thanks

I can´t beleive you thought I didn´t care...

No

I care...

a poem i wrote about it

*huggo*

I'm fine

._.

who was trying to hurt you? *loads shotgun*

stepmother

ok *picks up AK-47*

*hugs* if anyone hurts u i will kick their ass so hard it comes out their mouth

TwT

you gotta defend yourself, they yell, you yell back, they hit you, you hit back. teach them a fookin' lesson mate. dont let them push u around. theyre not gonna love you so why should u love them. *more hug*

I am never fighting back again- n-no way

why not

Read the rest of the comments yeah?

ok so u threw a boot what did she do

Well, my shoulder ended up being sore for weeks and when it first happened my hair was falling out in chunks

ok. heres how u will fight back. give them the silent treatment. only talk if u absolutely have to. dont come to dinner, just eat later. do chores silently, if they hit u, go in ur room for abt 20 minutes. pack a bag with some items. walk out of the house and down the street and stay out for abt 45 minutes or shorter or longer whatever u want. when they ask why, tell them "you know why". if they hit you agan, do it again but for longer. keep doing it until they relize what theyre doing. maybe even threaten to end it right in front of them. give them a rant about how they abuse you whilst holding a knife to your own throat. that will make them realize.

Wow

And they know about self-harm, and they know I've tried to suffocate myself, they haven't even bothered to ask WHY though

do it.