what should i do?

Hi Hitomi_Shinso, if you ever feel suicidal please please PLEASE tell someone they can get you help last summer my friend got so bad that I always was stressing out that they were dead. They went to a mental hospital 3 times that summer. I ended up doing daily arm checks. Now every time I see a straight line on one of my friends I get really scared. Please get help as soon as possible.

Hi Hitomi_Shinso

What ever that is that you're addicted to, the only way to get out of that is through rehab and support group. Have you tried those, and if so, are you still in it?

im not addicted i just cant stop even when i try to

OK, I would echo QuokkaOfBroadway's plea. Please tell someone, get help.

I suggest you do the following:

1. Make a list of the names of your family and friends. Those are the people you're living for
2. Nail it on the wall of your room. You can also make copies to bring with you
3. Choose something that would remind you who you're living for, i.e.: your favorite color
4. Strategically place items of bearing that color around your home, office, locker, etc
5. Wear a wristband, a lanyard, a ring, etc, with your favorite color of yours
6. Keep all the birthday, get well, and holiday cards you've been given over the years. Your collection will remind you how much you are loved

i did #6 when i was around 5 and my friends are enough to show me how much im loved

but thank you

Hey Hitomi_Shinso! Sorry I'm a bit late.

Like UniformVictor and QuokkaOfBroadway said, just try and find anything that makes you feel loved. Be it friends, birthday cards, or anything, try to find something special.

thank you

Np!

Hi Hitoshi, how are you so far?

Your not alone, just seek professional help.