The story of my life........*cries really hard*

;-; *hug*

*hugs back*

I haven't talked to my bestie (we try to talk multiple times a day) in 6 days
My other friends I didn't talk to in months
They are all upset with me but tbh I just don't feel like talking anymore
The best compliment I have gotten in my life was "I don't know how anyone can be sad or mad around you"
My family finds ways but it stills means a lot to me

Okay. Alright. And I'm sorry you have to go through that. But its just not worth your life... please don't. Please. Seriously I'm going to cripple away if your not here anymore. Please don't go...
And fr? THATS the best compliment you've gotten? Halfwhit you are literally so f**king perfect. Theres not a go***mn thing wrong about I do not give two f**ks about what you or anyone else says; you're amazing. Don't do any shit...

I'm trying...

I know you are, and you're so strong and I'm so happy you've made it this far. Please keep going Half...

I really don't want to
I really just want to swallow all the allergy pills go to sleep and never wake up
Sadly I'm a coward and can't do it

I've never been so happy you're a coward in my life .-.

Everyone just thinks I'm always so happy....

You don't need to be happy Half... feel whatever you're feeling, let it all f**king out

I'm sobbing and smiling at the same time
I'm a psychopath
Everyone always tells me "you are lucky to have such good parents"
Am I just insane?
Am I being dramatic?
Idk anymore

You're not any of those things, you're just hurting, and thats okay.

It's not ok
I either get laughed at or yelled at for crying
I just need to stop and keep going

*wrong about you

No. Crying is so okay, its human and everyone does it. Don't feel bad for letting out emotion. And if you seriously feel that way, just don't cry in FRONT of anyone. Crying is perfectly fine.

I have seen my brother and my dad cry once in my life
I have never seen my mom cry
I have cried 3 times in the past 2 days
What is wrong with me

Which is why I always hide everything :D

I'm sorry ;-;

;-;