Disclaimer, I am not being LGBTQphobic in anyway, these are just my thoughts.
So on the surface, I’m a pretty odd trans girl and that’s fine, everyone has their own personality. But below the surface, it’s a bit toxic. Because there are some words like the homophobic f word and other hate words below the surface and some times, I want to do some trolling and make people mad and I know that’s wrong.
Then you have me self doubting myself, am I really a poser? Am I really myself? Do I really have a gender at all? I sometimes feel like that I’m not really a trans girl but a boy and and as I’m writing this, I’m feeling fear go through me. I feel like sometimes, I’m really just a guy and not girl and the other way around and I sometimes feel like I’m bigender and or genderless or non-binary or pangender or whatever.
Then you have me questioning my sexually, am I gay or am I straight or am I bisexual? Because when I figured out I was trans, I felt like it came to me really quickly because it was over a few weeks when I questioned my gender.
Thank you for reading my vent.