And if you do try it, I'm not going to tell you don't, I'm going to tell you to do. Once you have your hand on the trigger, there's no going back. You'll see everything you've ever done before you, and all the shitty things, and the good things. You choose which one will take you out first, and you'll feel like shit for weeks, and it doesn't go away, the ghost of what you did will haunt you. And if you do succeed, well you did, the last thing you did, the last move you made, is the shittiest thing you ever did in your life, and afterlife.