Presenting TedTalk 2.0:
I don't become unhappy if everyone else is happy. And sometimes it is a little hard to keep everyone happy. But that just makes me try even harder to make others happy. Now I just can't make everyone happy, so I don't know what to do.
About a month ago, I had an argument with my best friend (he's an online friend). That was the last time he was online. Since I realized I made him go offline, all I've wanted to do is make people happy. When I can't make people happy, I think of him looking down at me from my version of heaven I guess since I'm not Christian. I tell him how sorry I am about not making things better and not taking him for granted. It's like I know when he's listening in on my life. I try to have a conversation with him (it's like one of those fake conversations that you have in the shower at first, but then it starts to feel like I'm actually talking to him), but sometimes he's not there (not in a bad way, just like a "hey I gotta go pick up some groceries" type thing).