today was a day i did not come out of dark place i stayed in

My son is like this too. It is sometimes hard to break from the darkness. I try to engage with him and spend time with him. We like to sit around a fire and tell bad jokes.

my family hates me

So does mine. I have not spoken with them for over 7 years. I left the state with my family to get away from them. Sometimes your family can be the problem. I was lucky to find a loving wife who accepted my Autism and issues that comes with that. I hope you keep the faith and look for those who accept you.

Thanks

I dream of the day I can leave

thank u its a struggle not to commit explosive diareah

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thank you good citezen

i've done it many time in my 13 years of life and i'm still struggling but im making progress and thats what matter to me :)

Good for you. I dealt with massive depression for years but finally found a wonderful woman who I could talk to. She pulled me out. I still deal with it but it is not so deep now.

aww congrats!

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you're welcome lol

I loose progress mid game :[

nope... i wish

im cutting rn..

hey hun.. look I know it's hard but please don't cut yourself.. it's not worth it. I recently carved a broken heart and the words "f**k love" into my thigh and I regret it. I realized that in the moment the intention was for the scars to stay but after thinking about it I realized I'm gonna have to live with that for the rest of my life. I'm so ashamed of my scars because they make me feel weak. but that's not my point here, if you need someone to talk or vent to I'm here just feel free to dm me anytime and if I'm offline still feel free to, I'll see it and respond when I can. sometimes it really helps to just get thing off your chest. Please talk to me if you feel like hurting yourself again. You matter <3.

My son did this too. He has scars from it with will last a lifetime over something happening now. I got him to open up and talk. Some things he could not tell me so I got him a professional to help.

Its not easy. This is a timely one. My boss scheduled a meeting with me Monday to discuss my 'issues' and listed a number of weighty comments, ending with 'don't worry or ruminate about this'. Little does he know that's all I do. Trying to keep an even keel but ... its not easy, it feels like a very heavy weight and now my weekend is shot thinking about what could happen. Anyways, thats life I guess. Apathy/not caring is my standby to avoid stress but in this case I have to care or at least show I do. Although we are responsible for ourselves sometimes external circumstances can be the cause of depression. The challenge is to recognize the difference and try not to blame others for our reactions. I empathize with everyone, take care y'all.

I always took criticisms personally myself. It is hard for some people because we internalize things and people do not understand this. I found some good friends I could talk with and vent. I made mistakes and told work "friends" and I go knifed in the back by them. Depression is real and pills are not always the answer.

I second that - sometimes the side effects are worse, well most of the time. Definitely need to be careful with opening up around coworkers.

I tried, but it didn't happen.. I hope you pulled thru, if you're going thru something, also.

Try to not ever give up hope. Someone or something is out there that needs you too.

Thanks <3

Who_am_i why do you use a beginner profile logo

just so you know i try to but it keeps pulling me back in so you'll never be proud of me

I am proud of my son who battles this daily. He is more often in a dark place but it will never stop me from loving him. He works at each day and has gotten better as he has grown.

I got better as I got older as well. I was a depressed maniac and almost gave up. As I got older it got better for me. I think it has to do with hormones and getting comfortable in your own skin.

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Oof my eyes just watered up

I'm sorry but I'm just not

My son was like this. We talked and got his counseling. He no longer does it and is happier. Still has rough days but he is doing better. So please talk with school counselors or call someone. There are so many resources these days.

No, I've been keeping up this happy-go-lucky fascade for years, and my parents would be devastated to find out I've been depressed

wait, you're a parent? everyone on here is like 12 lol

Yes I am a dad. I was invited to be a MOD and I live with depression. If you talk with your mom and just tell her I am sure she would understand. My son was afraid to admit to weakness but after he talked he felt better. Knowing that there is some help can be a big relief.

It does. And I dont have that strength. So, Im always in a dark place.

But I like the dark... because you can see stars!

My ex locked the room and took the key now I’m stuck in a dark room

You're only stuck if you allow that person to continue to take the control from you. You dohave the strength to take the control back!