I'm really glad you changed your mind. There are many of us here who care about you, including me. Don't you ever forget that. If you're ever having a hard day and need to vent, just get in contact with one of us, and we'll help you through. And, if by some bizarre chance no one is online, I'm certain you have IRL friends who care even more deeply, and who would be more than glad to help you through things. And, in everything, remember that God loves you so incredibly deeply that He gave His only begotten Son to redeem you from what destroys you.
Cheers,
Ælfwine Elf-friend