Hey, I'm always there, we could talk and try fixing stuff, my mom is a therapist too, I can try and get her to help u if u want.
But please for gods sake please do anything about it, its gonna keep getting worse, I can try my best to help, but please don't harm urself
Believe me, u can do it, u can be happy , ur already a great person, why not make u a super mega great person???