I hope they forgive me

What I said after I got pissed off:

Another day I'm stuck here, another day goes by.
Another day I ask myself: why do I even try.
These shitheads all around me? They poke and prod and pry.
Sometimes I wish that I'd just...
Die!
*My friends ask me if I'm being serious and I respond with a yes*
My day to night is filled with misery,
My other friends are always such a bitch to me,
I think my near suicide attempts count is pushing three,
I just don't get how this is hard to see,
And as I lie awake at night?
I. Just. Want. To. DIE!
*My friends in the call start to talk about for me to look on the bright side of life and annoys the shit out of me*
Y'know, I think I changed my mind. I... wish... you'd... all... DIE!
Living here's not going well!
This quarantine is my detention cell!
I feel the need to scream and yell!
I wish that you'd all BURN IN HELL!
You guys always f**king get all the damn credit for doing all the work WHEN I WAS THE ONE WHO GAVE YOU GUYS THE ANSWERS WHILE YOU WERE JUST SITTING AROUND WITH YOUR THUMB UP YOUR ASS !!! I always get the blame when you assholes get the group in trouble! Last year, no one wished me a Happy Birthday! F**k all of you! F**k everyone! And f**k this f**king phone call!

Yeah, and I left the call after that realizing I just
f-ed up real bad. I apologize for all the profanity.

Real friends have each other's backs. I'm so sorry about that.😢

Yeah, they forgave me about the incident, but I know I f**ked up

That same happens to me irl for the most. I ALSO FEEL AS THOUGH I WANT TO DELETE THEM ALL. Just like when I see dumb, negative comments from the toxic users on imgflip. I feel like dying on the inside and want to delete them in a war. I want toxicity to end on imgflip. I'm so sick and tired of the toxicity on there, especially for stupid reasons.
Me seeing the toxicity: let it die, let it die, let it shrivel up and let it die

Yeah, it sucks soo bad. But perhaps we'll win the election next time to help imgflip, but for now... we're at a lost and currently teamed with Trainwatcher

Yeah
And I will never give up on my rants, roasts, and speech
POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!!

Oh god.

Yeah, I f-ed up

No, it's not that. I was just surprised that you had the guts to do it. If I did, I'll be yelling at my cousin right now. Serves him right, he won't let me on his computer.

If they are your true friends, I bet they'd understand you just got mad... I overreact a lot with my friends and I admit I've lost some, but I hope this works out for you... :( (This might not be the time, but that's kind of impressive to recite that on such short notice...)

That’s what I scream in the closet

Damn, my friends and I are bad friend to each other and we don’t go out like that...

It's actually necessary to vent it out on somebody..

Perhaps