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I "often" think about how I'll die and what will happen after it with my family and stuff. I think I'll just die and there's nothing later but who knows. I think dying might feel like fainting? (idek how this feels like, I've never fainted)
Sometimes I think how would it be if I died in that moment. I think I have pretty accepted that I'm gonna die some day, and I'm not worried about it, I think the worst part is for those who stay, and although I don't know when I'll die, I hope to have everything in order to avoid bothering my family with lots of stuff to do.
Like, I expect dying old, having just a few things and letting everything ready for my death (paperwork and so), or if I no longer have a family, I just want to die calmly and that nobody finds me.
And if I get to die tomorrow, that would be sad, but I'm thankful for all what I've lived and learned here

I always add this sentence at the end when I think/write about my future

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as somebody with suicidal depression (i am healing, don't worry), i personally belive that death is natural. it must not feel good, but it's natural. just, make the best of what you have.

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but what about your soul

I don't belive in that kinda stuff, but i feel like it could go in a plant of some sort.

I'm not religious, so I don't have the beliefs that others might have. If you die in the army or something by getting hurt, I would think the moment before death would be extremely painful, but then you die. If you die of age in your sleep, I don't think you would feel anything. I wish I knew what happens to your consciousness after death, but I really don't know. The logical thought is that you'd go into a world of nothingness for the rest of eternity. You wouldn't get bored, because you're dead and can't experience boredom. Honestly, I really hope for something different than this, but if that theory is true, it really shows how precious life is.

ah i see

Sometimes when I'm walking and a car goes by, I wonder what it'd feel like to be run over and if I should try. I KNOW that it's a horrible idea and I probably would never do it, but my curiosity is often really f**ked up.

i see..

I'M NOT SUICIDAL.

i know i had the same feeling that but about cliffs

(foreknowledge: I am religious, a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints)
As far as I know the veil between our world and heaven slowly thins without you even realizing you are dieing/dead. It wouldn't really feel like much of anything the moment you die.

um what i think is that when you die your body gets buried or cremenated but what aboout your soul?

Your soul is separated from your body until Christ comes and we are all resurrected.

uh ha i see...

Yep. All. The. Time.

it started when i dreamt of a killer who killed a little girl and put her on a sack naming the sack 'Kalyani' as a name..some kind of Japenese i guess

That's a really weird dream!!! Yeah, idk why, but I'm always thinking about death, and it all started when a book scarred me for life.

me too, will i even have a next life?

I THINK ABOUT THAT, TOO!

REALLY? its so weird whenever i think about it a shiver runs down my spine

SAME!!!

WOW WE'RE SO SIMILAR!

That's kinda scary, ngl... XD

you read the book too?

No, but my friend likes to blurt random things that she reads in her books.

:'(

Ye... and thus the beginning of my depression.

im a book nerd...reading challenged books every day *shrugs*

Same. I read a book meant for adults in 6th grade.

yeah, lol

*illuminati music*

thats sad...:'(

Yep. :l

this is gonna be silly, whenever i think of dying i think about my ocs how they never die and are with me forever

Whoever I think of death, I imagine me or one of my friends or family dying. It's sad.

dying makes me think Treasure Island right now

Why?

eh idk proably because Jim Hawkins had to suffer from seeing people dying

Yeah, true.

i think about my parents dying

I remember only 4 deaths in my life; my two great-grandmothers, my pet betta fish, and my great-aunt. That's it. They are all still sad, though.

:'(

Yeah... I still remember my mom crying and telling me and my sister what happened. It was the worst Christmas ever. And then less than a month later, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. Those first few months of 2019 and the last month of 2018 were terrible for us.

oh that mustve hurt inside :(

It does. The most recent one was my GG on my mom's side, and she died the day before Christmas, about 1 1/2 years ago... :'(

also i think you'll like the memory of light

Okay.

REALLY? wow, youre more challenged than me here :o

Lol I didn't like the curse words in it, though. That was the second book I had ever read with curse words.

Treasure Island had curse words and The Memory of Light had curse words i didnt like the curse words either

Yeah, I still flinch whenever I hear a curse word. Unfortunately for me, my classmates are immature and say the f word way too often.