The song has restored my strength

I guess these:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAQMdVEV8SY 100 Bad Days
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1URKkuAuN4 Duality
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sC5WkEvchU Yes and No
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LG1dDvWv1_0 Can You Keep a Secret?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHbiNdVMevg Nightmare by Hasley
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wh9lOJMasbM Nightmare by Set It Off
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gjMCrwnHXkY I got no time
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fz66lTcjN1w Running With the Wolves
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_BRoGB6nto Everything Black
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38jSLJ9zzWc Weak
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gg6H7E0Wk9s Assassin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9EqnSrswEU Panic Room
Aaaaaaaaand that's all I could think of/find.

Lol, you don't have to.

Pick one that's most significent to you and we'll talk :)

I'd say this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LG1dDvWv1_0 Can You Keep A Secret?

Well... that was quite dark, but the message is not missed:

"Can you still love me despite my secrets and flaws"

Not that you have any that matches the art in that music video but we all have flaws. Flaws, weaknesses, and idiosycrasies we're unaware, or ashamed of. Or the fact is... that's just us. We cannot change no matter how hard we try.

Then some of us have skeletons in our closets. Not that we're that dark but we've all made mistakes. Some minor, some major; but we fear all the same to open those forbidden doors to others lest we're seen differently.

But when those secret(s) are exposed... we want desparately for them to know it does not define us. We want to scream "We're not monsters"!

And when it's over, could they accept us?

What do you think? What makes that video relateable to you?

Yeah, I have schizophrenia so I have hallucinations and they are usually very dark and also side personalities. This is what the song lyrics mean to me personally:
So much on my brain, don't know if you can take it- I usually have very mixed and messed up thoughts and since I am a pessimist, I have a hard time seeing the good.
Your heart is fragile, baby, I don't wanna break it- I'm afraid of hurting my friends and family by telling them my exact thoughts and truths that I usually hide.
If you know my sins, will you still trust me? If I let you in, will you still love me?- I'm afraid of being rejected just for the way I think, this is why I don't like speaking the whole truth.
I've got skeletons that coming out the closet. The hands around my throat don't want me to be honest- My side personalities are sometimes holding me back and mess me up.
I see monsters in my bed. I got screws loose in my head- Hallucinations and my mind makes pretty messed up ones.
If I show you inside me, the ghost in my mind, Will you treat me like your friends?- I try to hold back my side personalities, especially the aggressive ones in fear that they'll hurt my friends and family.
Look me in my eyes and see what I've been hiding. Don't act surprise you know I've always hated lying- Like I said, I have a hard time with the truth, but I try not to lie, but instead usually give white lies to conceal the whole truth.
Gave your heart and soul to me to take it. You're the one who said, nothing could change it- I'm very afraid of hurting the ones I love most in any way.
I gotta know, Can you keep a secret?- If I told one person the complete truth, I wouldn't want anyone else to know in fear of being hurt and heartbroken from my own faults.

That's very deep, Ememeon; I can see how the song is very personal to you. I can't imagine having what you have, and feeling that you're sometimes a monster to the eyes of others but never have you meant it. If only they could see your heart.

Schizophrenia is not your fault, and you've never chosen it.

You're afraid, everytime you meet someone, that they'll reject you or that they'll end up leaving soon after witnessing your bad moments.

I'm very sorry that you have it; but I hope you don't dismiss my following words when i say that you're quite strong. Seeing you here, still talking, evidenced that strength that you've never given up life.

And the courage you've just displayed in self disclosure is amazing to behold.

T-Thanks... I'm fine with Schizophrenia though, I'm used to it anymore. And my side personalities, well, my previous one used to make me cut a lot and tried to get me to kill myself before my own side personality killed himself. Its hard to explain unless you have side personalities as well...

Stop. Really stop, right now. Both of you. It was both of KennyPlays and Victors problem that I will explain tomorrow.

Goodnight...

What would you do if they misbehave?

I usually have Taboo, the calm one, talk to Sicarius, the bad one, which he is pretty mellow anymore. Although he did make me curse and snap at my friends the other day.

OK, I'm going to take full responsibility for this mess.

Kenny didn't not insult me. I've insulted him because I thought he was trolling you. I had no prior knowledge that Kenny was your friend.

I've overreacted. That's my fault.

Well, he had trolled me before in some ways.

How about your split personalities; are you taking medications for it, if there is any?

I'm sorry, your side personalities I mean.

No, I'm fine with them as long as they behave.

When was the last time Kenny trolled you? And do you feel that he's trolling you now?

I don't know... it feels like he always is anymore.. he didn't get along well with my old side personalities even though he said he did... and he likes me a bit too much and won't leave me alone and keeps saying that I want him to die when I never said that.

And then he practically bullies me and makes up all this stuff and I'm just... you know, tired of it.

He especially disliked the things that I liked, as one time I made a meme about Foxy and he told me to stop it with the Foxy stuff.

That's great, I think you have a good measure to deal with that personality.

Yeah, he does snap sometimes, but I think Taboo and him get along well. Of course, that's how one of my old sides was, the one who made me cut and all... he acted like he cared and all.... then turned on everyone... it got really out of hand...

Forgive me for asking this; are you a boy or a girl?

I am a female.

But I prefer to be called 'sir' or 'mister' rather than 'madam' or 'miss' or anything like that.

Is CAKennyPlaysYT your friend?

I'm glad you've managed to live with it; are you taking any medications to have it under control?

No, I don't have hallucinations that much. My friends say its just stage 1, so, yeah.

yeah, well number one, i did NOTHING to him in the first place, number 2 is that i DONT EVEN KNOW HIM, AND HAVENT TALKED TO HIM EVER UNTIL NOW

All he said was that he was reading my comment when you said that nobody was reading it.

Ladies, ladies. Calm down, there’s enough lipstick for both of you.

Sorry,

Anyways.

I talked with UniformVictor and he explained his side of the story. Could you explain yours?

yeah, but he also threatened to flag me, which can get me banned from commenting, and i did nothing too

BECAUSE YOU INSTULTED HIM FOR NOTHING.

oh really? what was that insult?

Hey, no...

im not sure anyone is reading that

I am.

um why are you being like this? i can easily flag you for insulting me, i did not insult you

Hey man. Step away. I’ll talk with him.

He wasn't even insulting you.

wow

Yes, CAKennyPlaysYT; it really takes no effort if you've ever read a book before.

Do you want to continue on trolling now? Please leave or I'll flag you.

Does he keep bugging you about what you like?

Not once I confronted him about it.

Let me know when he trolls you and I'll have a look.

I got to go, but take care, and God bless.

Aye, thank you, best of wishes and luck to you.

Thank you.

And you're welcome.

That's alot

Yep, and after listening to them and knowing that I say that they all represent me, yeah, I'd be scared, too. :\

oof

Yep.

Hmm now thinking about it, I feel like I have more than you

What does that mean?

songs that represent me

There is also this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kGmc8UMDJw Control

That's sounds good

And also this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEtNl5yTt2E Nightmare by Billie Eilish

Also this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLEaLmXizzI I can't fix you

I'll search them later. I have to go. Goodnight

Aye, g'night.

Aye.

Soviet Connection Gta 4 theme song

Aaaaaaaaaaaand this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEtNl5yTt2E Nightmare by Billie Eilish

Also this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLEaLmXizzI I can't fix you

This one as well:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgUuANZT8_E Let me down slowly

Dang....... *inhales* I have alot stuff to look up XD

There is also this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kGmc8UMDJw Control

Yep, warning: A lot of them have flashing lights and yes, I'd be scared too after listening to all of these and knowing that they represent me.

Lol okay I'll check them out after dinner XD

And this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEtNl5yTt2E Nightmare by Billie Eilish

Also this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLEaLmXizzI I can't fix you

I've heard the first one 🤣 I'll look up the second one

And this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kGmc8UMDJw Control