Literally me today

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Um...hey. F**k, this is awkward....but uh...you knew Charon, right?

He's dead... isn't he...

Oh, you um...you knew about it?

Yes
Who are you?

Um, well, my name is Tristan, but I was just a friend of his....

Tristan... I've heard that name before
But how do you know me? Why did you meet me? Why are you here?

Oh, really? Did he talk about me? Ha...
Well, a week or so ago, I think, i have a bad sense of time, but ah...he talked about you a bit. Called you 'sandwich boy' and some other things...so I just kinda...did some browsing until I found you. It took about a day to do it.
Well...I mean, I dont know, really. I just thought you deserved to know.

Yeah... he told me I reminded him of you
Oh really? He talks about me?
Ha... I don't deserve anything

Ha, stupid, annoying and like a brother? Thats me.
Yeah, he did. Not much, but...enough to make me think that you deserved to know.

...
thank you.... I needed that...

Heh....youre a good kid. And dont give me the 'but Im actually pretty bad' crap, alright? Youre a good kid. You have a good side. Now f**king shut up and accept it.

How’s your girl? She seems sad...
Plus, it’s Valentine’s Day tomorrow, go have some time with er’!
Hope that your vibin’!

How do you know? You've never met me before

...

But the stories Charon told mean you have at least a good side. A really good side. And thats enough.

That's some aggressive support...
Like him....
I miss him...

Ha, yeah...he was....something else. But...Im not gonna stick around this site all too much, sorry but sites arent really my thing. So um...I want you to be Charons memory, in a way for me, aight? He was a good person...but he wouldnt let himself see it. I want you to kinda just...make sure his flame dosnt die out, alright?

And how do I do that?

*shrugs* Just....dont forget him. Do whatever comes naturally to you.

He called me "the stupidest brother he had"... or something... my memory's already foggy...
Well I don't. I killed him. Do you really want to be with the person that killed your brother?

Ha, that sounds like something he would say.
A degrading, backhanded compliment....
Im at least 3% you didnt kill him.
Are you sure you know how murder works?

I killed him. I was the cause of his death. If I didn't tell him about the smoking he would have lived.

Hey, dont say that. Cause and effect dosnt count as murder.

I killed him, okay?! How can you not accept that?! I killed him all because I couldn't keep my mouth shut! And now he's dead! All because of me!

No, you didnt. If you want me to get mad at you, you wont get that. You'd be better off talking with either Leiah or Aiden.

You didnt kill him. You didnt kill him. Its not your fault. Its not your fault.

Okay... I will

But it is... all because I was a snitch...

So what? Being a snitch dosnt directly tie you to murder.

But I led him to the place he was attacked...

wait he was attacked Mono told me he got sick really sick

Have you ever heard of "poison"?

yes

Exactly

So... he was attacked by poison

WITH

Oh so like they had poison on their hand or was it a poison food

But you didnt know. If anything, you were taken advantage of. Dont get survivors guilt, alright?

Poisoned knife

...alright... But I'm not sure if I can forgive myself... it's all a mix inside my head... a mess...
Ha... just like my life...

Oh I feel that.
But, hey, life's too short to be feeling like youre a crappy person. No one is truly good, as we all have bad sides. Dont waste yourself thinking youre shitty inside.

Thanks.

...I messed up my life... angered my teachers and family... ruined my student record... and for what? Leading the person I wanted to help to death?

How'd you ruin your student record?

I used to be a model student. Diligent, smart.
Now I sleep in class and turn in my assignments late

Well, thats admirable, but dont feel too bad about it. I mean, lots of people are like that all over the damn world, so youre not doing bad things when compared to others. The fact that your still doing your work shows you care, and to be honest thats a lot better than most other people.

I try to help people... and I sacrifice myself for it
My parents don't understand... so how will my teachers? How will anyone else?

Ha, Ive seen you deteriorate as of late....you dont have to talk about it, its fine.

But....youre doing the world a favor. And thats good enough.

I did too

Um, what the heck is going on?

I thought it was riot not write