Sitting in a hospital waiting to meet our daughter and her birthmother. Also firing someone for the 1st time.

This summer, when I was told I needed to go to a mental facility for the first time. (Hopefully the last). I went to a normal therapist, and confessed to suicidal thought and self harm.She said I need to be sent to a mental facility, but my mom didnt want me to go. We were all afraid, and we had a big scare, because there was a good chance CPS would have to intervene, and take me away. The therapist broke a lot of the rules too, like confidentiality and all that, and I had to go to a psychiatrist a few days before I went to the mental hospital, and she tried to come in with me, so she could talk to the doctor in my place, which is something I didnt want....All in all, that summer was very stressful.I dont know how im still standing, to be honest.

Thats a misconception, actually. Besides, the therapists are only allowed to say, 'Person is in danger to themselves/others' and nothing else, and only to a few select sources. She was telling everyone, all the facilities, (Like, all the ones in the area) without our consent. When we told her to stop, she threatened us with the CPS calls.

Wow that does sound nerve wracking...good for you for getting some help though, and I also hope that is the last time you need it! It takes a lot to overcome those personal struggles though, and good for you for still standing, you can be proud of that :)

Haha, thanks. I kind of regret going, but at the same time I dont? Its hard to say. Like, I wish I got that help, but I wish it was with different people, I guess, is what im trying to say... weather or not im doing better...well, im feeling worse, and that means its getting better, so I guess its going to be okay.... Im not going anymore, now that I have school, so im kinda just stuck in the 'everything feels worse' and the anger phase right now. As for how long I'll be stuck in this phase, I dont know, but I just hope it gets better soon.

Honey, I am so sorry for the very difficult time you have had to face. ((HUG))

((Accepts hug)) Ah, thank you....

I had to call my wife from the hospital to tell her I had a problem with my gallbladder and they might do emergency surgery. The same thing that killed her father. Oh and it was one week before the anniversary of his death. (As a bonus, it was Christmas week. He died on Christmas)

Ouch. Yeah I can see why that would make for a nervous feeling. My wife's grandmother also passed due to gallbladder surgery complications, her recovery went wrong and she ended up in ICU. Held on long enough for her grandson to get home from west coast to see her. Quickly after, she passed. It was almost like she was holding on to see him.

My cousin had gall bladder surgery today

Hope they recovered well!

i think they wil

Oh goodness. That had to be a nervy situation for you both!

Tonsillectomy

at least you got plenty of ice cream afterwards!

That was the best thing about it

Getting spinal surgery

Ok yeah that would be pretty bad on the nerves...pun intended...lol

Needing to go to the bathroom after watching ghost videos

Lol, yeah you can get creeped out watching that stuff :)

Yep

But I am ten so I love that stuff and can't stop watching that stuff

While on the silvir lake sand dunes the jeep got stuck on a hill and I thought I would die

Everyday is a nervous moment in my life.

When I choked before my second monologue in a theater competition.

did you pull it off?

Kind of. It was Mary Warren from the Crucible, so I guess that one could argue that it fit the character.

I saw that play when I was in high school, it's a great story! And I'm sure you did fine. If you're like most of us, you are your own worst critic.

We actually did that play last year! I played Tituba because that was the part I got for some reason, and I also had to play Judge Hathorne (the other judge who didn't talk as much) because the dude who played him was literally dying (he's okay now).

Ouch, well that's a good reason to stand in for someone! Glad he's ok now.

Playing music (unaccompanied) at my sister's wedding. She had a list of really sappy stuff & it was so awkward & out of my comfort zone, but I couldn't say no.

Good man, I'm sure you did great and I'm sure she appreciated it!

Thanks, she did. It went well enough but I couldn't believe how nervous I was. I always get a little nervous playing in front of people but that was like, sweaty palms, heart racing nervous. hahahaha.

Yeah, I can relate to that. Its really nerve wracking.... I hate that feeling more than anything.

It's something I've gotten used to over the years. I learned to tune out the pressure of being watched & just have fun.

Yeah Im like that too! After my first performance, even though I was still nervous, it wasn't as bad as before, because I learned to have fun.