Nope--you are misunderstanding me. First, God is not imaginary. How do I know? Because He answered my questions (Is Christianity the true religion? Did Jesus really die on the cross for me?) Then when some time passed and I started doubting Him and myself (along the lines of, "God couldn't POSSIBLY have answered me. Why would He talk to me? I'm a nobody. I must have been misinterpreting"etc etc--He came back a second time when I was praying for healing, healed me of my incipient blindness and told me I was healed, AND told me I was one of His chosen people (anybody can be one of His chosen people, just by believing in Him).
The most difficult part of the concept of belief in Jesus as Lord and Savior has always been, for me, the idea that you HAVE to believe in Him to have eternal life in Heaven. Why? Why can't you be a good person and not believe in a particular religion, but believe you need to live a good life?? Well, that question got answered, too, thanks to be years of ongoing massive harassment by UF Health Shands Hospital (Gainesville Florida) for being a whistle-blower (after working there 25+ years as an RN). Look around you at the horrific things happening in this world. All those people who are pretending to be good people? they worship the devil. I'm serious. The churches have totally been taken over by secret societies that worship demons such as baphomet and lucifer. There ARE NO GOOD PEOPLE except for the ones who worship Jesus. (And I'm not talking about the fake Christians in the so-called "churches" or the fake Christian preachers spreading the so-called "prosperity gospel" nor the so-called Christian evangelists who request 55 million dollars for a jet to fly around the world, preaching the gospel. No, I'm talking about the REAL Christians who give to the poor, the homeless, etc.
So it makes sense to me now, that that I've seen the churches are all just a bunch of "wolves in sheep's clothing" in the "synagogues of satan."
There are several passages in the Bible that say things like, "Seek and you shall find. Knock, and the door will be opened." All I did was ask God, during prayer and meditation, a few questions. That was me knocking on His door. He answered! Twice! Yes, He gave us this rational mind, He knows how hard it is to believe. So just ask. Keep asking, if you don't hear back right away. Your mind will absolutely be blown. His love is amazing.