Probably more times than you. But you're evading the simple but unavoidable point that if you GIVE free will, YOU are responsible for the consequences.
If I give a five year old kid a loaded pistol and tell him not to ever point it anyone and he kills a playmate, the law is NOT going to put him in prison. It will instead imprison ME.
Just obvious common sense.
Trust me, I know the usual theological apologia better than the average man on the street. I just have the spine to stop making excuses for them.