was i gone?

Perhaps you were there incognito? Your last post was 4 moths ago, I happened to look at your personal page a few days ago ...

I did not log in at all during…:)

That's wha t I thought. Sometimes one just has to pause from the craziness everywhere ....

love was wrestling with faithlessness.

Oh, I know this feeling. There are times where you just doubt that anything making sense will be possible in this world. But as they say - in the end never give up!

it is a state of being. I have never doubted so I won't know what you mean. I always had faith… even before everything…

Well, when one is born into this world with a humanity full of hatred (non-compassion and non-love), willingness to kill and greed, and one thinks seriously about how this could be changed, there would come times were one would really doubt if it is possible at all to get humanity to a state where this stops and humanity will be governed by love and compassion. First of all, one would have to be very smart to think of an indded possible way, and second one would have to be aware that there would be many beings who would not believe that it functions and would rather vote for destroying humanity. One would have to be aware that those beings would try to stop any development going into the envisaged direction. And when this would seem to be quite successful at least temporarily, one could easily start to doubt that one could never reach one's goals.

what you are describing is a phase. You might lock yourself in it as a scinetist with your own theories and concluding formulas and rules from assumptions about what you experience; or satr asking questions and learn the truth. there is no doubt in my dimension.

Hey man, obviously you do not have a D3 life. I ahve been questioning everything "man-made" for my whole present D3 life, because I want to reincaranate in our D3 world and have a fantastic D3 life in my future - because i think it is possible and better htan everthing known until now.. Of course I know that there are many other dimensions and that present science is buggy a hell, but ... and now I have to keep my mouth shut here.

Had written a long comment, but deleted it by mistake. Sure itt's a phase, I didn't say it's my "nature". But going through this phase is pretty bad. And btw, if you think I am the usual scientist, you are very wrong. Any really good scientist always experiences and asks questions. And FYI I know very well, how buggy the present scientific theories (including math) are. But I cannot say more here.