There are no words that I can say to express how sorry I feel about your past, Hopefully, there is someone out there for you now.
Even though I live in the UK, I do follow the news in your part of the world. Remember that governments change, sometimes for the better 🤞
Sometimes I think the only reason I get up in the morning, is fear of missing out on the insanity of the world - which I like to contribute to and, of course, posting stuff on the internet,