im sorry had to go to bed really wish i didnt but the day befor my mom and me had this whole conversation about how she was doing her crocodile tears like "you have such a better life but i finnaly understand that youll never know the pain of living in fear that i did" and she was like "i dont understand why oyu hate me why arent you saying i love you anymore am really a bad parent" and i was like, mom, ive been going through too much stress of grades and everytime you call me isla it makes me so sad and i hate it and my friends call me Wren so you have to call me that and she was like "but why did it hurt so much for you if you didnt tell me your blaming me for something you didnt tell me" and i had to keep repeating that i didnt have the courage to tell you and i had to say that like for five minutes which is a long time in adhd time and it genneraly just gets really annoying and then the next day she said, "do you wanna be a boy" and i was like its more complicated than that and i told her that if i told her shed say i wasnt real and she was like than what is it and for some reason cause i cant hold in my stupid f**king emothins i cried and said i was genderfluid and i explained it and told that even though im genderfluid most of the time i felt like a boy and that my friends called me a he and she went on and on and on about how my dad wouldnt really call me wren bc he listened to a lot of government podcasts that were like, "oLd MeN aRe GoInG iNtO wOmEnS bAtHrOoms SaYiNg TrAns" or some shit but like my mom is trying to call me Wren now and my teachers are cause my moms fine with it but my mom wont call me a he and i explaind binders and how i didnt want surgery proving my dad wrong that all the trannies are getting surgery for kids cause they ARENT so yea
