And of course my stepmom takes my phone away, and I'm no longer allowed to use it at school, but realistically knowing her I think shes probably gonna take it for a long time like what she did with my tablet a few months after I first got it. So long for actually trying to become a normal teenager and actually going outside. I'm going to stop trying to lose weight as I just can't anymore. I'm not going to let them know where I'm going anymore, because I'm never going to leave the house. I'm definitely going to die of a heart attack, aren't i. And she'll never listen to my perspective ever when it comes to issues. She never has. When I was little, she brought me to these babysitters with these kids that would constantly leave me out and antagonize me. They once left me outside in the backyard, in the cold rain. I fought back because they bullied me, and every time I kept trying to say that they bullied me, my stepmom always took their side and said I was the one in the wrong just Because I fought back. I kept telling the babysitter, but she'd never tell them to stop. I stopped going there after a week, not because my stepmom realised what they were doing, but because they thought I was bullying them. That was traumatizing, and it probably is the reason why I have a huge fear of confrontation. I'm probably going to end up homeless when I grow up. I don't have a car, I don't have a goal in life, I don't have good grades, I don't have enough experience to create a resume, and now I don't even have a phone anymore. I'm back on my crappy, 10 Gb storage, weak Amazon fire. I'm never going to ever grow up. I already ate 2 bowls of ice cream today, cookies, and a bunch of chips. I'm a loser.
