So basically I got had gotten my first and closest feeling to love she was called ttsumica we met on Roblox and been friends for months then on discord I confessed my feelings to her and we got together. She was really beautiful and nice, she made me feel happy but sadly she ghosted me after only a month of being together we never met in real life and I feel as if that is one of the many reasons why she left me she told me I was the nicest person to ever love her and how her previous 7 F**king exes used her (that's a lot of exes...) I didn't know what I did wrong but at first I didn't feel sad or anything just my usual self but then months later I started feeling terrible and sad and started to think she was f**king other people while I was texting "I love you!" the last message she ever sent was "she needs to understand that i have other friends too , im closer with my irl friends so i talk to them more oftne" I understood and gave her space but that was just her way of saying "I found someone better than you." I guess, I continuously thought of her cheating and it hurt me more and more then months later I found another girl we became friends and then she told me her man forgot her anniversary and stopped responding, she would then sneak in some frisky texts like "I like you" or "you and me" then delete immediately, soon she broke up with him and chose me but that feeling of love just didn't feel the same and it felt tarnished, I even started thinking "I don't love her." but I know it's all like that because that bitch ghosted me and ruined everything she was supposed to be my lover forever for my first but I guess I let myself open too many people will just abuse me. My first love experience was just ruined and now I'm thinking of what else "first times" will be ruined. But that's all from me now.
