I dont know what to do. I'm a horrible person, I ruined my brain with drugs, it takes an ungodly amount of effort to do anything thats opposed to me sitting and doing nothing, the only thing that makes me happy is stealing alcohol or being a stupid chud on imgflip, I don't see any future for myself and I cant end it cus I couldn't ever bring myself to ruin my parents with a forever memory of their child dead , they don't deserve it. I hate myself so f**king much. everyone tries to help and it doesn't nothing. I don't wanna hear about all the good things I have done or could do cus I know myself. and I'm not doing any of that. I just want to be gone. Im such a pussy
