Every summer to me feels like hell by the time the first two weeks come to an end. I don't know if it's a skill issue or just bad luck, but both school and summer have their own ways of pissing me off. I could be infuriated from anything. I just get pissed off so much that if I remember just one thing that I did that angers me then I'm in a horrible ass mood. Just assume that I like being mad, especially when I'm saying that I play Brawlhalla Ranked now.
It's either suffering with a group or suffering solo, and this shit deadass got my jackass thinking that everyone, and I mean "EVERYONE" hates me, when in reality I just gotta go hop on Scratch or pick up a sheet of paper and a pencil and start making characters or doing something like making shorts with three to four characters and post it on YouTube, which I never really did.
Can't forget about my sudden mood swings to become envious of other people simply because they're better than me. That shit is my kryptonite and it will always be my kryptonite. When I get envious, you better expect me to look at something delicious you have or something you're extremely talented with and comment "I'm envious of your drawing skills," or "You're so lucky." If I was miserable in my book, I could've just said that.
By the time I turn into a senior I'm going to be a grouchy ass man. F**king Mr. Grumpfish 2.0 over here. Then I'm going to become a deadbeat dad beating up my kids and telling them some words that are harsh to them, because guess what? My mother got that from her mother, and I'm going to get those parenting skills from my mother, and I won't have any consequences to deal with except my wife getting the divorce papers. That is, if I'll ever get one.
If I turn into a homeless man on the street with a long beard, let it be known that most people in the real world that I like and love have created two situational outcomes for me. Either I bottle up my anger and feelings, or they bottle them up for me. Talking to someone is never an option, especially for an African American.
