im sorry if I'm cringe or overreacting,
but about a year ago i had a girlfriend
who was mentally abusive.
its affected me
i feel like complete shit 24/7.
i cant name one person
who loves me besides my parents.
the funny thing. I have so many mood swings.
i Physically cant cry because
everyone told me to deal with it.
i cant cope, i jerk off 24/7,
i am a literal f**king loser.
i get called a f*ggot every time i went to school.
I literally sit on my vr and watch gore videos
because I'm f**ked up.
i cant keep living like this.
i cant change myself either.
I'm 14 and I've "tried" killing myself 2 times.
I'm too much of a pussy to pull that trigger.
i sit in my bed all day, on my vr or Xbox.
i tried to o.d on ibuprofen (you literally cant).
I'm so stupid.
