please don't kys, Idk if you follow a religion or whatever but I want to let ya know Jesus loves you, if you kys, think about all the opportunities you will miss, the potential new friends you will never meet, new girls that could possibly love you, think about your parents, who raised you with loving care, if you kys, how would they feel? Think about your current friends that hang out with you, care about you as equally in the group, if you kys, what will they do?, trust me, killing yourself is not worth it, I recommend you get some help, break up with your abusive girlfriend, no matter the effect it has, and look forward into the future, a wise meme shirt once told me: today f**king sucks, tomorrow might not, the only way to find out is be there, I love you (platonically) I hope your life improves,