i might as well just say what I want to say and get this over with.
I despise every aspect of my life. The most I've ever accomplished this year was energy drinks, losing a school spirit day, and moving on to a new grade. Not even a new PR or a genuine success. I've just sat in my own room being a complete bum for the entire year when I didn't have to do anything else. And to be quite frank, it's horrible to be aware that you're a bum and not have the competence to change that. I definitely CAN change it, I've just been so damn lazy my own body prevents it.