I’m asking this trying to understand your thinking and understanding: do you know anyone who has tried to commit suicide and survived it? Do you know what they feel when they wake up in the hospital alive? They feel relieved, and thats not because of heaven being boring, its because they want to stay on this shitty planet because its where their friends, family, and everyone they love is still there. My grandpa died years ago, but he told me this before he died at 79, “I am ready, I have been here far too long, it is my turn to go to God, and I know I will be glad that God chose me to be his servant.”