you're never in the mood you pathetic little shit instead of using this site like intended you whine about how much you hate yourself and expect people to feel for you go make some actual friends
"Wah wah I deserve to be hated, wah everyone should hate me" you sound like annoying little shit who uses self hate as a deflection to take any responsibility for your actions
instead of changing you jus keep wallowing in your fake misery to avoid the fact that you have the ability to change you just don't want to cus its easier to keep whining.
you clearly haven't tried with the belief you can change you weakly attempted and went back to your usual state cus its easier and now dont even try to change cus you think like this