I remember that feeling. when I first came out I was with my guys friends (I'd always been friends with guys since I was 5, i was a weird one out) and they were play fighting and then one of them missed a shot and punched me. They all felt horrible and were apologizing profucely. It hurt cuz he got me good, but I laughed. It felt so good to finally feel like one of the guys. While i cannot and won't punch u, pushing u around I can do. >;3