Dude don't worry
When you're at the bottom the only place you can go is up
You're gonna be ok
Those behaviours are normal with adhd. I know, I have adhd too.
Complaining and venting is a healthy way of coping. You should talk about this with someone you trust.
Stay positive. I was able to make myself better, and you can too.
If you ever need to vent, memechat me.