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I've never been good at throwing things away. Not things like candy wrappers, food, or actual trash, but random things I have around my room. My room has always felt cluttered because of it. They aren't things that are necessarily "special" to me, for example: trinkets, bracelets, or other random things that have never had a backstory or meaningful reason to why I have them. They don't even matter. A part of me thinks it's just because I'm lazy, but deep down I know. I know I'm scared. I'm too scared to let go of these things, things that I have no care for. I have piles and piles of these things on every surface of my room. If I throw them away, what if it makes me forget? What if I'm throwing away pieces of myself too? These things that have never had a meaning, yet mean so much at the same time. They're like memories, even though I don't care for any of them, I don't even remember where they're from. I'm scared of change. Last night I realized, maybe it's good to change. I won't be forgetting, I'll be moving on. Maybe it's good to let go, even if it's hard. I've had some of these things for forever, so I got used to never letting go of them. Once I finally did, I noticed all of the things I really needer to let go of. I dropped my blades and everything I've used, or could use, for self harm into the trash. I finally decided to get better for myself, not for others. I was too scared to let go because it was the only thing that I believed could make me happy, until I realized it was what made me worse. I believed I would never get over it, and I honestly didn't want to either. I wanted to process how much it really impacted and mattered to me. I wanted to show how much I cared. Now I understand that it shouldn't matter at all, all that matters is that I'm okay and happy. Letting go isn't forgetting, it's growing, changing, and moving on.

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