no.
because you will wake up eventually and start again.
i would make sure of it.
for every day may be hell and back.
its the little pieces of heaven that save the soul from falling.
so i ask of thee to arise and continue.
so it is your choice to forsake the ones that help you? the ones that would end up following your example?
and their helping wasnt your will sure but if you cant even take their hand what does that make you?