Toaa: well we always had bumper heads... And I hated her , gave some very mean death threats to her and always had a grudge to her, but after she proved that she secretly loves me and confessed to me... I was ashamed of myself because if I would've known that if she had actually a crush on me things would've been different and our relationship would've improved so much. So I hope that ik her final moments I became the best boyfriend to her and that I gave her comfort, joy, validation, and encouragement in her final days and I have my redemption on someone who just wanted to feel love. Good bye my sweet love, If fate was so kind we could've have a family and kids together but alas things had to be this way, may you enjoy heaven and we reunite when it's my turn in heaven.